i keep saying this
but i want to come back to writing for myself - to get thoughts out, or just to think through things through text
does this need to be done openly? probably not, but what's the harm when this is something that it really just for myself
im teetering on the edge of being able to venture out again
10 days of isolation
coming to an end
too much has probably already been written on this
im more interested in being self-interested
i want to read and write more again
now i have something occupying more of my time during the week i neeed to be considerate to how i move forward with my own practice
i dont want to let it slip behind
but the studio will do a lot to help out with that
as will reading, crossing between some theory, some fiction,
it's funny how when you have all the time when you are out of work, you struggle to find a minute to read, or at least you find it hard to justify that time to yourself to read,
because there is this sense, well at least for me there was, that to give up that time to read, means i could have been looking for a job, or maybe trying to make work
but at its core, i find reading to be fundamental to how i develop my ideas, and to think back over the last year, i think through a lack of reading, and a lack of really feeling like i can have time for myself has stifled my thought process and led to struggling at times to flesh out and develop ideas.
doom takes over more at that point, you feel like you shouldnt be wasting time
but actually when you are struggling you also lack the real brain space to take in reading in the same way
i could read
i literally started writing this too long ago - i've been out of isolation for over a week now - i should post this now
